Monday, March 22, 2010

inconclusive

Instead of finally falling asleep at around this time, I forced myself to go to bed early...and still ended up awake at this time. funny old world I live in. Well it has been quite a while since I've last written. Maybe it's because I didn't want to make this my whine-mobile. haha. can't have another overly emo livejournal incident. or maybe there hasn't been anything good enough to write about. I'd say it's the insomnia getting to me. well...writing as a result is a bit healthier than becoming Tyler Durden one should think.

as for my adventures of late...well...haha I trekked on up to northern Minnesota for a job interview at a resort. it was really amazing and they pretty much hired me on the spot!! I move up on May 8th..the day after finals day. personal fail..didn't realize Mother's Day was May 9th. My gift to her is not being around to spill potting soil in her car, make a mess in the kitchen attempting to serve breakfast in bed, or getting in ridiculous arguments with my siblings over how to write English papers. hahaha (love you all) I'll send a picture of me kayaking around Birch Lake or something. Moms like that kind of stuff right? Anyways, after this interview I basically got into my car feeling incredibly elated. I blasted my music and cruised down highway 1 back into town to fill gas before heading back to Mankato. literally went in to pay, talked to the cashier for 2 minutes, and came back out to a completely deflated tire!!! so...I had a busted tire, in the middle of the North Woods, on a Sunday. haha perfect. Well...thank every bit of heaven I knew some people here. Granted, I probably wouldn't know about Ely if I didn't. At any rate, I called Sheri and Keith Rue up in a right state of panic because I'm a 19 year old girl. Why would I know how to change a tire, let alone do it correctly!!?!? haha they were on their way back from Owatonna, so they called their neighbor Tom to help me change it. So I ended up having to stay the night here and i'm going to miss all my classes tomorrow, but I'm not too concerned. I'm up in one of the most beautiful cities in Minnesota, cuddled up with the dogs (actually...they are piled on top of me), explaining Harry Potter and drinking coffee with the sweetest people on earth. what's not to love?

It was funny because if you know me, you know how much I worry about everything. So I felt absolutely terrible about having to call my ex boyfriend's parents up to bail me out. Not that they wouldn't want to come to my rescue...but because they are hands down the nicest people I have ever met in my entire life and I am not really sure why or how I deserve to have them in my life. but I thank God that I do. I admitted to a friend just a few days before that I honestly wished I had horribly wrenched their son's heart apart or done something crazy so his family didn't like me, because then I wouldn't feel like I'm missing out on anything. but right after they had saved me from being stranded and took me in, I texted that same friend asking if I could take back all of what I said before.

I moved from the guest room to the living room with my laptop once Flash and Lightning (doggins!!) realized I was awake. Everyone was alarmed at how early I was up and at it so Sheri asked me if everything was okay or if I had any worries, but before I answered I just sat and thought about everything in perspective for once and how my Facebook horoscope told me that the time for optimism is now. I remembered last night when a grouse flew by and she told Keith "It's a sign they're glad you're home. and that everything is going to be okay!" haha. I just told her about my impending insomnia and sat back thinking to myself that it'd be pretty silly to be worried at all.

i officially can't wait for this summer.